Monday, May 2, 2011

I Don't Know Me


Love, do you spend more time loving other people than you do loving yourself?  Do you have it all figured out, you’ll take a bullet for the people you love, but how much are you willing to take for yourself?  How long have you put off things you’ve wanted to do, because you put others first?  Do you take pride in loving them?  Do you stand tall on the balls of your toes; pump your chest out, gleaming at what you’ve sacrificed for “them”?  I guess I’m asking all of these questions, because I don’t hear a “you” in the picture, except for you giving to someone else, not yourself. Ok, last question, please don’t take this the wrong way, but are all those things done to distract you from what you’re afraid of most, yourself?
If you answered yes to any of those questions, you should know this, when it’s all said and done, when  time has lapsed, you’ll have to look in the mirror, you’ll have to get to know you, even the scary parts.  You can’t love others, not in the true essences of love, until you can love yourself.  If you don’t have one, perhaps you can buy a journal.  Maybe in that journal every night you can start unearthing you, by asking yourself questions you haven’t asked in years or maybe never asked.  Ask questions like, where did I see my life at five years ago?  What was the first memory of emotional pain I felt?  What do I think forgiveness means?  Why don’t I feel worthy of my dreams? Even if you don’t answer them, just write a question down every night.  Spark up these conversations with yourself, allow yourself time to think about them, see where they lead and be open to the responses you get back from yourself.  I promise talking to yourself doesn’t mean you’re crazy!  Take the next day, maybe even two, to think about them, then go back to them and write, write whatever comes to your heart.  I promise you’ll begin a relationship with yourself that will enrich existing relationships with family and friends.  Let me know how it goes!? Just my random thoughts :)
Until Next Time, Love Someone

3 comments:

  1. WOW...that was very deep and enlightening. I've always been the "go to person". I act like I can't tell people no. BUT when I need something some people will make every excuse not to help. Maybe they forgot, I was the same chick that busted my butt trying to make it happen for them. Years ago I had a journal but I stop writing in it. I will make it my business to get one this weekend. I need to start talking to myself and understanding ME. And start putting me first at least 5 days out the month!!! Thanks for such an eye opening post.

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  2. Hi, MrsRodgers11! It's so important as women, we fully understand our worth. We can not lose ourselves in the people around us. Outside of being a mother, a wife, a friend, we are people. We're people with our own desires, goals and dreams. We have to remember those dreams and find a balance! Thanks for stopping by. See you next time :)

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